my darling its your birthday a whole year without you i want to say happy birthday bit its a day i hate now so much and i really dont want to celebrate it,its been a hard year,in a way it fells like it was yesterday but in the other way it feels like forever,the simple things about you i miss,the phone calls,id do anything just for a phone call today,i swore id never get another chihuahua but thats all i want,just a little piece of of you in anyway,i hate that the world keeps turning without you in it,i hate that you are where you are,cant abide putting flowers there,but in a way i feel comfort because i no you are there,its 10am wish i could turn the clocks back so we could be there with you instead of you facing it alone,but as always life had to be that much harder for you didnt it my darling,you were so brave and so strong all your life mum,im so proud of you for being so wonderful a mother you truly are,a day never goes by that i dont think of you or miss you,i hope i get to see you again,because i couldnt bare it if i couldnt,its the only thing that gets me through is thinking your happy with nannie and grandad just waiting for us,i hope you are/love you darling miss u always xxxxxxxxxxx