its ten years today mum, it still don't seem real,i still think i can see you again. Life is so hard right now, dads gone, the family is non existent, awful virus wiping people out, and you not being here makes it all unbearable, lots has happened in this time, I thank god for the memory's they keep me going i go back to the Christmas you brought me my disco lights record player god i loved that,im sorry for being such a pain and always ruining the surprise for you, my lovely blue bike, and my roller skates god they were the best presents ever, you never had much money but you always did your best for us starting shopping in January for our gifts just so we had them, you were amazing so amazing with everything you were going through as well, you always kept us safe it must have been so hard for you❤ i wish i could spend today with you, get you your milkshakes and chicken burgers, or your king prawn chow mien. Just anything as long as we were together, I miss you my love i didn't know how hard this would be without you, you kept saying you were trying to prepare us but it still wouldn't have nothing ever could have, I love you and miss you today and everyday, love your kezzy xxxx ❤❤❤❤ ps bessie is having a baby your gonna be a great grandmother you would have adored that wouldn't you off to the shops on your scooter spoiling them as always