Mum i dont know where the time is going,i just go through the day, then the next then the next,nothin really has meaning for me anymore its lonely mum,sometimes the quietness is just unbareable,im a prisioner i cant go out round here,im just locked in this house forever,because its been so cold in here i keep feeling my hands it freaks me out cause the last time i saw you your little hands were freezing,i keep seeing you layin there and i have to ,make myself forget i just cant think of you any other way its making me sick,youn no i wish all the time for you back i cant see why just for a moment i cant how can you be then not be,nothing i have of yours smells like you anymore i just want to have that smell for a second not the one in that place but your house smell i never thought id miss that so much but i do.god mum i just miss you so much i suppose thats how its gonna be till its my turn,just missing you i love you darling always you were and are the best mum in the whole world id never want another,love u always