You would call as soon as you woke up no matter the time just to hear our voice,you would say i just wanted to make sure your ok,we was but you never was,you just kept fighting on and on,even at your worst all you thought about was us,you would talk about leaving us and we would have a go at you for it, ud say im just trying to prepare you,and that we should be strong,we wasnt prepared not one bit,when i saw you had gone,nothing could explain my feelings i was lost,even now its nearly 6months im still not really understanding it, you were here now your not,i try to be strong for you,but i cant its killing me day after day night after night,crying for you,memorys are all i have but mine are of that day,i dont see you smiling and laughing i see everything that happened that awful morning of your birthday and those days that followed all just go round and round,i no you were in so much pain but i still wish you didnt have to go,cause now as soon as i wake up i want to hear your voice to see if your ok but you dont answer your phone,i just want to no if you are ok, if you a better now,and just to tell you i love you so so much xxxx